First post of the month... new year... new decade, that's a lot of pressure...

As with most people, not much has changed going into January 2010. My trip back to Michigan was fun. Spent most of the time with the family and that was nice. My sisters are growing up so quick!

Chloè is now 10, Sophie 3.75 and they are a ball to hang out with. Chlo is in that "almost grown" stage and I do not envy my parents. I got her a digital camera for Dec. 25th and Santa got her a laptop. Yes, I am jealous. Even though she's the younger one, Sophie is much more... authoritative? Opinionated maybe. Took her shopping and she knows exactly what she wants. It's cute, for a while at least.

The nights were split between things, places, and people I don't remember and time with my ex.

*Must protect identities lol*

*People from high school (makes me feel so old!)*

*New Year's Eve and one too many Grey Goose, orange, and cran*

*BC and yours truly*

Overall it was a great trip. I was there just long enough to make my first week back in Florida hell. Separation anxiety x 1,000,000,000.

I know it is for the best though. There is no reason for me to stay there. I will get it together and make the most of it down here. (That's what I keep telling myself)

I'm excited to be back in school. Even though I say this every semester, I think I am really going to give this one my all. Really. Seriously. Hopefully.

*coffee cups have the best messages*

It is FUNdamental

It is crazy how life repeats itself...

When I was younger I had a HUGE bookshelf (okay, maybe 5 feet tall) that was jammed packed with books I read at least twice. I loved to read. Every holiday I got books. I had every book in the series. Ispy, Boxcar Children, Goosebumps- you name it I had it. Every night, before bed, my mom would come in and make me read a chapter. That's how I got so smart :)

Through high school there were a few books I read outside of school, but nothing in comparison to what I was doing before. College hit and I had no time or real desire to pick up a book if I didn't have to. Up until a week and a half ago. I finally broke down and bought Twilight. I never wanted to follow the trend (and I am secretly scared of vampires). Not such a secret anymore... Anywho. I LOVED the books. Read all four in five days. Not bad, not bad at all.

Doing so took me back to when I was younger and could spend all day reading a book just because. I was an only child until I was 10 so my books we almost... dare I say friends? I was normal tho, no worries. I cold get so carried away in a story that I would male it real. I always have been infatuated with British society and have a deep love for classic literature. That was the only reason I stuck with AP Lit in high school... After finishing the Twilight saga, I went to Barnes & Nobel and purchased three new books. Currently I am reading "Wuthering Heights". It took a while for me to sink into it, but now I can't put it down (except to write this and the occasional tweet of course).

For me, reading creates an escape from reality and all its burdens. You can travel to other times and places and become oblivious to the world around you. And that is exactly what I need right now. An escape. And reading is the most conceivable idea I had. Who knows... I may learn a thing or two...

Welcome back

Today I became aware of what I am. Not who, because it does not define me. It does tho... disappoint me greatly. A change must come. And I will open it with welcome arms.

TGIF

It's Friday!! Not that it means anything more than 9 am Anatomy class, but hey. Somewhere someone's gonna have a good time. I used to go out Thursday- Monday so the fact that Friday means nothing to me now is very, berry good. Makes me feel like I have matured. Anyway. Aside from thanking God it's Friday, I have a few other things to thank Him for. Good health- earlier this week my baby sister went to the hospital with what they thought to be swine flu. Thankfully they didn't admit her (= no H1N1). Poor baby's a trooper. Now my mom is feeling down and out and most likely kicking herself for not getting the flu shot her office provides. Me? I'm fine. Was out of commission yesterday due to a killer headache but I have rebounded nicely. Having a job- It may not be the best, but that paycheck every two weeks makes me feel great. I know I'm lucky to have a job with this economy... And last, but not least: having people in my life who love me. It's hard being away from home. All it takes is a call from 48504 to remind me of that. I have a great family who supports me whenever I need it and there's no way I could be 1,400 miles away if I didn't have that support system. So thank you and Him.

Now pray I don't fall asleep in this class...

Wyclef Jean – Suicide Love (feat. Eve)

Wyclef Jean – Suicide Love (feat. Eve)

Great "chill" song. Sounds like the old E-v-e is back, added cool points.

Day Two

I am a huge procrastinator. And today it may have finally paid off. I was up early to take my uncle to work, realized I had no life, and went back to sleep. When I got back up it was nearing high noon and the hunger pains hadn't arrived. I busied myself with trivial things, such as studying and cleaning for a while when suddenly- it was three o' clock! I glanced at my belly and wondered if it was being silent in protest... mad because it knew there would be no meat in it for a while. Surprisingly she was just being good (minus not withering away overnight). I usually drink a lot of water and knowing I would be hungry, I just kicked it up a notch. Looks like laying in bed all day and avoiding doing dishes is the key to success.

*don't tempt me (bleep)*

No more meat

As the title implies, I am giving up meat. Only for a week though. The guilt I had after eating my delicious pancakes was unbearable. I tried being a vegetarian before and it lasted for like 36 hours. It's a hard change to make! I live a fast paced life and crackers and lettuce don't fill you up all day. Meat. Delicious meat will. One of my pre-New Year goals is to follow through with things so this will be a great warm up. The first three days are the worst. Tonight I made pasta and left the chicken for everyone else. It pained me to pluck it out of the bowl. Ahhh. After that I plan to give up bread (gasp) for a week. Really just white flour. Tough times ahead...

Dinner Show

Last night we went to Thai-Sushi Express for my uncle's girlfriend's birthday. She usually spend 4/7 nights at the house so she is no stranger to me. Something about last night was different though. I'm not sure if she was nervous because my Papa (read- grandpa, my uncle's dad) was there or the fact she was almost 40. There was a lot of "affection" going on that I must have overlooked before. Ugh. Not exactly what someone missing their sweetie wants to sit and watch for two hours. Dinner was great as usual. KC Rainbow Roll, sans tuna, is where it's at. Boston roll. Yumm.

*It's stone crab season and this was their version. Amazing*

*The happy couple*

*ta-da*

Pancake Mission

When I was back home, weekends ment sleeping in and waking up to a home cooked breakfast. My Nana speciality was fluffy panckaes, spicy potatoes, and your choice of bacon, eggs, or toast. Life was good.

Since the move, I've had maybe ten breakfasts, none of which were homemade. Been jonesing like a mofo for pancakes! I tried the local diner (that everyone raved about), but they produced the usual flat, no flavor flapjacks. Then it hit me. There is an actual establishment that specializes in pancakes. And they are internationally know.... IHOP!!

When this epiphany originally occurred I hopped out of bed, didn't even bother to turn my swag on, and was on my way. Mere feet before my thirst was quenched- I got called into work. I vowed to make a speedy return...

Today could not have come at a better time. Between work and school, a nice dose of familiarity was much needed. I ordered a coffee and looked in wonderment at the menu. Pancakes. All types. Gingerbread. With sprinkles. Strawberry cheesecake. Ohh eem gee. I decided to revert back to my childhood when my mom wanted to make me feel better, ordering the chocolate chip. There was a little guilt about eating two days worth of calories... but besides that it was heaven. And I even saved some for tomorrow. Joy!

*They have so many syrups*

First things first

Thought I could start off with a few facts about myself...

1. I am random. Scatterbrain. Confusing. All that good stuff. It works though, because if I wasn't you and me both would get bored.

2. I recently moved from Flint, MI to sunny South Florida.

3. Since the move, my eyes have been green. No contacts.

4. CREAM was a nickname that started in tenth grade for Myspace and has been around ever since. It's an acronym for Cash Rules Everything Around Me. It's the color of my skin. It's just fits.

5. I have a detailed life plan. OCD like detailed.

6. I'm in college to become a nurse, but all of my aspirations have nothing to do with it.

7. My life goal is to leave this planet having made it better than when I came onto it.